The last three years of my life have been the most enjoyable of all to date. This sounds incredibly profound and probably attributed to some emotional outpouring in that I am packing the last of possessions into bags to make the final move from Loughborough back to The 'Bridge. In fact it is a realistic assessment of a fantastic time when and where I have met my greatest friends, enjoyed ridiculous numbers of new experiences and probably done some serious damage to my internals.

I can't work out how I feel about leaving. I've found myself talking to myself in the past few days, regularly telling me that this is "the last time you'll do this", which I don't know is a unique phenomena to me, but certainly makes me think that this is a seminal point. I've certainly enjoyed more ups than downs in the past three weeks since the course finished. It is strange that even now I am making friends, mainly with coursemates who I am only just getting to know through the mass of social activity. I've often found it hard (as I did last night) to split my time fairly amongst the people I relate to. I realise there are probably folks I'm not ever likely to see again (ever) who I have already made last contact with. Very deep, but I can't help assess where I am now. How do I keep in touch with so many friends and memories?

One of the most coincidental, but brilliantly timed outcomes of the past few years is the arrival of the net as a social network, and the ability to capture all the activity of the past three years in digital photos. In three years, I have collated over 3500 photos from Lufbra, most of which are on display here. I hope this becomes the permanent record which both me and my friends can use for a long time to come.

Although this is all very philosophical, I actually am feeling little in the way of emotion. In fact, I seem more in limbo than in a state ready to accept one of the biggest changes in my life to date. This time next year I don't know what I'll be doing and where I'll be at (it's hard enough to believe that the day after tomorrow I'm going to be in Tokyo). Being an optimist, I know that this year is going to be as good as any other, but there is part of me that longs for the university experience to go on a little longer. This is, perhaps, the reason I am so keen to start up some little projects in the area next year, and continue to build relationships with some of the businesses who I have had the chance to work with in the past few years. Although my work has taken a backseat this year, I now have a drive and energy that I want to focus on my own plans; the one thing that the course never really allowed me to do (without my marks suffering).

Last night was my leaving party/housemates' 21st present to me. We went to Nottingham Dog Races, a new experience for me, and really good one. Who can complain about a four course meal for £12? Really nice too. Had a flutter on all but one of the races and although I came out down, I still had a few small victories. Jono, as ever, was his lucky money-rinsing self. Afterwards we came back to Loughborough (some interesting transportation issues arose) and ended up in Echos then Rain. The places were full with course and house-friends, so it couldn't be anything but enjoyable. I eventually ended up around at Mank Ste's at a party that eventually ended up being shut down by campus security.

The day had been spent charging around trying to sort out foreign currency and looking at the degree shows. There was some truly fantastic work, especially in textiles which really impressed me.

Today I say some goodbyes and take my stuff home, ripe and ready to fly on Thursday afternoon. It's going to be a great summer.